DEAR DEIDRE: LONELINESS drove me to pay for female companionship – and now I’m filled with shame.
Since my wife was placed two years ago due to her Alzheimer’s disease, I feel so lost.
We hadn’t spent a single day apart since we were teenagers. I am now 70 and she is 68.
I promised her that I would never put her in a house, but I couldn’t do much on my own. Now I feel like I’ve abandoned her.
She barely looks at me when I visit her and I struggle with guilt. I have no friends, and our only son is across the country.
In a moment of desperation, I found the number of an escort on the internet.
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I met this woman and we had tea and a chat. She gave me a nice hug at the end.
While I felt nervous at first, for once I didn’t feel alone.
We haven’t slept together, but I’m disgusted with myself.
I bet my wife would be so ashamed.
DEIDRE SAYS: You have no reason to feel guilty. Although you promised not to place it, you had no choice.
You don’t have to feel stupid for seeking out female companionship either. Loneliness can be a very isolating feeling.
There are plenty of other ways to meet people though – meetup.com can be a great place to find activities and groups locally.
My support pack Do you feel alone? will also help.